Monthly Archives: January 2018

1/21/18: I Imagine You

  Lately I find Nothing but you Occupies All that I do I imagine you in the early morning Leaving for LA or for Frisco Bay I imagine you laying here beside me Feeling like it’s always been that way Take me at my Word it’s all true All I write Only for you I [...]

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1/20/18: Looking for Love: Muddy, Meandering Paths to Myself (Part one Running on Empty #2)

Got a long way to go, a lot of shit to own. And I won’t get to stay In my comfort zone ----------------------------------------- Looking for love. Indeed this topic has always been way out of my comfort zone. Even as I write, I'm painfully aware of all the shit that comes up for me regarding [...]

By | 2018-02-18T21:11:29+00:00 January 20th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/20/18: Looking for Love: Muddy, Meandering Paths to Myself (Part one Running on Empty #2)

1/18/18: Looking for Love: Muddy, Meandering Paths to Myself (Part one Running on Empty #1)

"I'm on a mission to dispel the age old adage that nice guys finish last". ------------------------------------------------- June 29th 2005, The above is all I can find so far of my profile that I uploaded to E-Harmony.com. Heh... I feel it's appropriate that I start this chapter on love (it could be a very long one) [...]

By | 2018-02-03T20:10:12+00:00 January 18th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/18/18: Looking for Love: Muddy, Meandering Paths to Myself (Part one Running on Empty #1)

1/17/18: Housing Search February 14, 2008

This next video was a fun little exercise. I needed to find a place in town so I wouldn't have to continue to commute from Waialua to my new Handi Van job. A good friend and I were seriously thinking of getting a place together. Anyway, you get the idea, I went on a tour of [...]

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1/16/18: Theodora at Kainoa’s February 9, 2008

The above screen shot is from 2008. It was the first video I uploaded to YouTube that was of artists other than myself. I was still living in Waialua, on the north shore of Oahu and my band Social Smokers was playing regularly at a bar in Haleiwa called "Kainoa's Pancake House and Sports Bar".  The [...]

By | 2018-03-03T16:05:52+00:00 January 16th, 2018|Random Awesomeness|Comments Off on 1/16/18: Theodora at Kainoa’s February 9, 2008

1/15/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty six, Standing up, #8)

... all that was going on in me that day I stood up to Bruce  --------------------------------------- I look down at Bruce lying unconscious on the floor. Stacy and Clark are crying, confused and scared. At first, I hear nothing. As if I’ve gone deaf. Then slowly the sounds begin to match the scene before me. [...]

By | 2018-02-03T20:08:09+00:00 January 15th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/15/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty six, Standing up, #8)

1/14/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty five, Standing up, #7)

They just had to work on my aggressiveness and that would require a different kind of bullying.  --------------------------------------------------- As I mentioned in another post, I was on a little league football team when I was about ten years old but never played even once... because I was "fat". So I was used basically as a [...]

By | 2018-02-03T20:07:36+00:00 January 14th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/14/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty five, Standing up, #7)

1/13/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty four, Standing up, #6)

My glasses!  ------------. My glasses were a major trigger for me for most of my life. Almost as much as being called a pig. I was constantly breaking them myself and since Dad only let me get one new pair every year or two (or when my prescription changed dramatically) I often had to suffer [...]

By | 2018-02-03T20:07:00+00:00 January 13th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/13/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty four, Standing up, #6)

1/12/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty three, Standing up, #5)

...where no Brian has gone before. ---------------------------------------- Standing up. Silent, still. All I have now, in this moment, is a feeling. I feel... Strong. Not strong as in powerful, but rather as being stable. My body feels lean and strong. It's such an unfamiliar sensation, like I have suddenly donned a new body. Unlike any [...]

By | 2018-02-03T20:06:25+00:00 January 12th, 2018|Memoirs|Comments Off on 1/12/18: The Cruel Years: Fear and Coping with Teenage Reality in 1970s America (Part twenty three, Standing up, #5)