Now I don’t do much of anything
I don’t make such a fuss
I just live to write songs and sing
as I’m driving my bus

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December 7th 2007

This is a screen shot of the first thing I uploaded to Facebook. Just after creating my account. It was a video. Probably saying something I thought was clever about having just started using Facebook. For some reason I can’t get it to play now.

No matter.

A little more than a month later (January 17th 2008) I started a YouTube channel and posted a video of me playing a newly written song.

Good Boy.

I look at this photo and the video of the song and I think of all that was going on in my life then. Almost exactly ten years ago.

I was living in Waialua, on the north shore. I had left my job the summer before (been driven from it really) and was about to move into town so I could be closer to my new job.

I was just getting started as a Handi-Van driver.

Funny… how the lyrics of this song make it sound (to me now) as if I’m letting go of things that might have been holding me back before, and how good I was feeling. A healthy message for sure. But my memory of those days (as I remember them now) are of a me during pretty chaotic times.

I also see that me in that moment, as pretty darn unaware of who I was and what I most needed to be doing with my life. In fact I can’t help but feel a bit embarrassed by the devil-may-care attitude I appear to be posing here. When the reality was far from one to be taken so lightly.

But I guess I made it eh? I mean… I was starting a job that would end up being the best job I’ve ever had (so far). I was writing songs right and left and most of them would be the songs I would eventually make into my album The Brian Show. The album that included the song called Good Boy.

Every day I’m feeling more and more proud to have done that.

Guess I still need to let go of some stuff…