here and now
into the unknowable complexity of time and space
i commit my soul
all i may be
and all i have ever believed i posses
will go with me
naked
standing before the mottled mirror in my mind
i look past myself and wonder
a ragged man walks barefoot on the sidewalk
he turns suddenly in front of my vehicle and into the oncoming traffic
forcing us all to stop
raising his hands to the sky the man turns and looks straight at me
his face is violently distorted with anguish and confusion
i look away
yesterday i apologized to a coworker
a man i neither like nor respect
we had had a disagreement a few days earlier and i was unhappy with my performance
surprised, he told me to think nothing of it and called me brother
our respective judgments remain
the isolation of ego
intact
sooner than later
my attention will inevitably seek the ubiquitous distraction of my “anti-social connection device”
a futile attempt at self deprecation
intended to find redemption somewhere in the inherent contradiction of this activity
please excuse my weakness
considering the undeniable extent of my privilege it would seem my hypocrisy knows no bounds
and yet
as if on queue
i receive a loving message from my sweetheart
visions of our pending mutual life adventures flood my consciousnesses
our minds flow in tandem
our hearts glow with random awareness of each and everything that supports our bond
the slightest inkling suggestion
an expanding and yet ever focused connection
here and now
into the unknowable complexity of time and space
i commit my soul
all i may be
and all i have ever believed i posses
will go with me
naked
——
My Sweetheart told me first
Blessed…
m(___)m
