The Life of Brian (In the Now)

How has it come to this? That one's humanity need be proven with every click. Every key stroke. Every move of the mouse, all become declaration for demarcation. And then again when in the space of the real, the public. When I find myself, out of necessity (really?) on the side of empire. Do I flinch? [...]

5: 57 am Try as I might, I just can't get anything. I had awakened remembering so much, so clearly but when I tried to start writing it here... It's gone, nearly everything. All I have left is that I was in a meeting with others who were about to put on a performance of [...]

10:11 pm Come near to close. This day of days. In many ways, like any other. Other ways as well. No heaven, no hell. Nothing more to do. No new stories to tell. All I have is you. All my love. My love. Be well. My wellness lies like a stone. My needs less... To [...]

This morning I awoke with an idea. No... It was a feeling that led me to an idea. An idea for a song or a poem. Perhaps a story. I don't know, it doesn't really matter at this point in the process. The feeling was one of sad, frustration and self doubt. Combined with deep [...]

7:05 am I awake in a muddle. A mild mental puddle. A moment melding freely. With the jungle and all I see. The dog brings me back from my fuddle. 7:20 am I return to my desk after feeding Roxy. I'd been in the above-mentioned mental state. Barely-awake and somehow thinking I was going to [...]

7:02 am In THIS moment, I breath in the constant gratitude. As it says in the song... It’s only ever after All my love and laughter Shout from hall and rafter All and all and all and all… ------ Yesterday... was an especially challenging day to drive. Never mind the usual Honolulu rush-hour traffic. Backed [...]

“If I had more time, I would’ve made this shorter.” ------ Mark Twain -------------------------------------------------- 5:41 am Awake before the birds. That first thrush with the human-like whistle won't be up for a while yet. Insects only now. And Waimanalo Stream. Not so loud as before. The winter rains, subsiding. I look back on a day [...]

7:01 am Half-awake. Desperately hanging on, to a dream... I've been made. My cover is blown. These enemy agents are closing in on me. I'm not going to get away but I've got to try. Gotta shake em. Gotta find a way, but I can't. There are so many. I turn down a dark ally, [...]

Or is it the other way round? Remuneration Contemplation It's both... really. Yesterday, the challenge was to accept all "payment" without question. To just walk through it. To fail to overthink it. No matter how trivial it might have appeared. The challenge was to recognize how much I deserve. And just take it. Sometimes it's seems [...]

6:52 am That distinctive whistling of the first morning thrush wakes me again, only slightly earlier now. Now that... "February's (nearly) over and time March-es on, yesterday, yesteryear got up and gone." ------ Loudon Wainwright III I remember nothing of last night's dream. I don't even have any images to draw from but somehow I [...]